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<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[wonder about what my back is facing</div> <div class="fade-in two">dare not turn away from my ritual</div><div class="fade-in three">deemed sacred by me and only me</div><div class="fade-in four">feel the stones beneath my feet|2]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[this walk has begun for no reason</div> <div class="fade-in two">and will end in no reason</div><div class="fade-in three">my legs already hurt from the</div> <div class="fade-in four">pebbles running away at my touch|4]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[the sort of softness that happens when</div> <div class="fade-in two">there are many of the same thing in the same place|6]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[water pummeling shoreline</div> <div class="fade-in two">over so much time crumbling</div><div class="fade-in three">what was once solid and firm</div><div class="fade-in four">to soft|8]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[this is worship</div> <div class="fade-in three">i am being watched|10]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[each rock i step on was once worship as well</div> <div class="fade-in two">scaling down over time</div><div class="fade-in three">becoming imperceptible|12]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[obsolete</div> <div class="fade-in two">still held in my hand and valued</div><div class="fade-in three">but only as one of many</div><div class="fade-in four">soft in that way|14]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[meet the water myself|16]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[ankle deep until the next wave meets knees|18]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[pause to find footing on shattered ground|20]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[look once more at the vaulted ceiling above</div> <div class="fade-in three">it’s moving quickly to signal a storm|23]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[every single pebble here contains</div> <div class="fade-in two">something</div><div class="fade-in three">trapped in its sediment|6.2]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[the closer you get to the waves</div> <div class="fade-in two">the finer the stones get</div><div class="fade-in three">knowledge to be gained</div><div class="fade-in four">and lost again|8.2]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[what is the exchange rate? <div class="fade-in two">one for one for one for one <div class="fade-in three">even in this small and essential state <div class="fade-in four">ground down by time ticking <div class="fade-in five">and smashing against them|14.2]]

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[current pulls my feet</div> <div class="fade-in two">away from the pebble beach</div><div class="fade-in three">waves push my chest</div><div class="fade-in four">back toward it.|30]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[then i am floating</div> <div class="fade-in two">above obliterated pebbles</div><div class="fade-in three">now sand</div><div class="fade-in four">in the basement of the cathedral|32]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[my edges smoothed by salt churning</div> <div class="fade-in two">soon to be a part of the collection</div><div class="fade-in three">kept in a pocket and pondered</div><div class="fade-in four">at leisure|34]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[sink</div> <div class="fade-in three">to the bottom</div><div class="fade-in five">thud on the ground soundless|36]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[bits floating away to become part of the rest</div> <div class="fade-in two">dissolving into nothing|38]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[there is a different version of this|40]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[quicker|42]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[where the walk goes up on jagged cliffside|43]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[gazes out over</div> <div class="fade-in two">an ocean of destruction</div><div class="fade-in three">down at</div><div class="fade-in four">pummeled stone face|45]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[that odd urge</div> <div class="fade-in two">to fling my body from a great height</div><div class="fade-in three">not a suicide or a death wish</div><div class="fade-in four">just a curiosity|47]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[about what the body would do</div> <div class="fade-in two">not even that</div><div class="fade-in three">just a deep desire to know</div><div class="fade-in four">what a moment of free fall would feel like|49]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[strange, seemingly ancestral</div> <div class="fade-in two">or at least deeply human|51]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[knowing i’d become a part of this precipice</div> <div class="fade-in two">blasted constantly with water yet still</div><div class="fade-in three">an unbroken whole|53]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[a part of nature’s monolith</div> <div class="fade-in two">dark desires</div><div class="fade-in three">secret wish|55]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[brisk skull smash|59]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[tumble down the side of the bluff</div> <div class="fade-in two">easy and clean</div><div class="fade-in three">even if the body gets caught on serrated edge|61]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[dangles, flaps in the wind|63]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[at least it’s extraordinary</div> <div class="fade-in two">choreography a live body could never do|65]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[left to the wind instead of the ocean</div> <div class="fade-in two">for the time being</div><div class="fade-in three">before the next storm|67]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/ZAFcypF.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[at least it will be seen</div> <div class="fade-in two">before its edges rounded</div><div class="fade-in three">profane banner|69]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[but i am here</div> <div class="fade-in two">at the bottom of the ocean</div><div class="fade-in three">so near the pebble beach i can smell it|71]]</DIV>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[waiting for the next person to put their weight on me</div> <div class="fade-in two">before i dissolve like the rest|73]]</div>

<div id="right"><img src="https://i.imgur.com/qhUQ7aY.gif" alt="home" height="500px"></div> <div class="fade-in one">[[reasonably hidden to keep hope</div> <div class="fade-in three">that i’ll be seen as a prize|75]]</div>